As I see it for a relatively short time, my body from the very beginning of my life has been sending me information over the years that something bad is going on in it. However, it wasn't until my adulthood or even maturity, or when I knew what was going on in my body, that I started to think about these signals as signals sent by my own body. Earlier, it could be simplified, I just suffered without knowing that I was suffering because I lacked any point of reference. I have never been healthy for as long as I can remember, so I didn't know I was sick.
These signals, which finally began to reach me in adulthood as signals that are worth paying attention to as objects for analysis, were chronic runny nose extending for weeks and months almost without interruption, ear and tooth aches, headache, lack of energy and Willingness to live, swelling of the face and whole body, bags under the eyes, loss of smell and taste, intestinal problems and a long list of other symptoms.
Before I began to perceive body signals as information, I received them only as anguish, weakness and suffering. I felt bad overall and in the unconscious I was trying to bring somehow some relief to be able to function and take on various life activities from day to day.
For this purpose, I took drugs for years, which - from my current perspective, were to remove my discomfort caused by the feeling of very unpleasant disease symptoms, and from the perspective of that time - they were supposed to bring relief, but in consequence lead to the condition that I instinctively sought from the beginning my existence, but I didn't know it was called health.