I found that I was choosing to bring myself quick relief from my suffering, which is why I was taking medicines. It didn't help me get any better because I removed the symptoms, which is beneficial information telling me about the inflammation.
It turned out that my need to get quick relief was the main villain preventing me from healing.
In the past, when people were sick, they would go to bed and get up only when they felt better. They mostly slept, allowed symptoms, and rested. And that itself helped. The body knew what to do and did it, even if it took a long time sometimes.
I realized that I always considered my runny nose, asthma, or sinusitis to be not very serious ailments that didn't require resting in bed, so I diligently removed the symptoms to function on a daily basis. But it all came at a price. Over the years, I had developed a serious illness that was impossible to ignore anymore.
I couldn't resist a thought that discontinuation of medicines is the only option for me, because, firstly, they no longer worked anyway, and secondly, that I wouldn't decide to have surgery.
I was afraid that when I stopped taking medicines, my body would take action to restore balance, and that might neither be easy nor pleasant. Since I wanted quick relief and I was removing symptoms for years in the past, now it might take years for the relief to come at all.
At the moment I made my decision, though, I felt relieved deep in my heart. As difficult as it seemed, I was ready to face my 'demon.'