BENEFITS

Thanks to my intensive research, I have noticed that the disease has an informative and complementary function. Informative, because it informs that something was committed against the laws of nature and complementary, because nature tends to complement whatever is missing according to the individual's blueprint. If for any reason the full spectrum of an individual can't be manifested, nature uses as if 'a prosthesis' to complement an individual's missing part, in order to manifest them to the fullest possible way in given conditions and creates a sort of a substitute element for something that has been emotionally buried and is still present, even though not visible. 

The informational and complementary functions of my nasal polyps are:

the informational part - manifestation in a physical form of the parasitic growths on my sinuses, that with my everyday decisions I keep violating one of the laws of nature by not standing up for my rights and dignity and since there is no manifestation of occupying my righteous space in my mental and emotional reality, there comes...

the complementary part - providing me with the prosthesis in a form of physical manifestation of occupying space (nasal polyps) to make me full.

In brief, the disease 'informed' me through symptoms (nasal polyps) that I was not occupying my righteous space correctly and showed me how to do it as the polyps do it indeed perfectly.

So now it is high time I opened my eyes.

My nasal polyps have shown me that my space, where the air flows, has been taken up and two out of my five senses have ceased to function and the energy I produce is consumed by parasitic growths that are fused within me.

I did not immediately notice where and how my living space and my rights were given up to the others. Literally? I have lived in such a way always and initially I was not able to extract the reference situation from the current situation for a simple reason - I did not know what the blueprint condition was as I must have lost the connection with the built-in sense of justice pattern that every living being has and according to which, they make (if they are healthy) optimal decisions concerning their life. How did I lose that connection? I am not sure which events from the past to blame and this is not what I would like to focus on now, as I don't have any influence on the past anyway. 

I needed to understand what 'take or occupy my space by others' means. Does that mean that someone sleeps in my bed or eats from my plate or wears my clothes? It could also be that of course, in extreme cases, however, I thought that more subtle issues were the point here.

Figuratively speaking, I noticed that if I allow a not so subtle guest to occupy my home and although being angry deep inside, I do not ask the guest to leave, furthermore, I provide the guest with all available resources and treat them better than the owner of this house, who is myself, I must be breaking some law of nature here. Does this law have any known name? I am not sure, however, if I act in a similar way in most life situations, where I don't stand up for my rights in the cases where others violate them, because I was taught it was wrong, even if consciously I knew it was bullshit, every decision that I make based on that false belief makes my frustration grow and turn into anger over time. If it ended up with anger it wouldn't have been all that bad, but if the anger never was transformed into action, it was buried deep inside and forgotten. An apathy was born, which was like a silent 'consent' to the intruder's constant presence in my home.

A healthy being often uses a gentle means of persuasion and when that doesn't work, they get rid of the intruder by force. A creature with a damaged value system, such as myself, confines within their shell and although agitated, it doesn't react, remaining stuck in this uncomfortable situation. Over time, they get used to these feelings and to such decisions. They don't know that they could have made different decisions, but as every action as well as not taking action have consequences, so if there is a cause to act (anger) and the action, driven by it, is not taken, emotions of distress and helplessness are being built up as a consequence and change into the disease symptoms over time as no energy disappears without trace.

I would like to take a closer look at other cases of 'nasal polyps life situations' and find out if they are similar and contain certain emotional patterns that I present here about my life. Perhaps, an emotional background to this disease is something that can be grasped and described as a pattern of decisions that  are harmful to oneself, for some reason. What does it mean by saying 'harmful' and harmful in what particular way? Maybe  it would be possible, by the effort of many minds, to create a map indicating the areas free from the disease and those that are most likely leading to it. My case, although seemingly possible to be interpreted this way and many others, that I have only heard or read about, is not enough to support my conclusions and could be a message for others with similar symptoms to reflect on their lives and notice their harmful pattern. However, and hence my appeal, since I have a strong belief that it is true, I would not be surprised to find its confirmation in the stories of many people, who suffered from nasal polyps, if only they would want to share their life stories with me.

I suspect, based on my observations, that there are patterns - mental equivalents, of all diseases having similar symptoms. I think that any illness - understood - becomes unnecessary and disappears as not only in my opinion is the disease the result of violating the laws of nature. Consciously or not, we 'create' our own diseases and ignorance of these laws does not absolve us from the consequences of breaking them.

I am convinced that no amount of time spent on searching for where and how we 'break the law', is a waste of time. For those who have already suffered from a disease, it is by all means worth every effort to find the reason why they suffer, as the process of searching for the meaning of our disease changes our status from the hapless victim to an active researcher of the truth, that we have more influence on our own disease than we think as a civilization.

Once I have found the meaning in my suffering and realized my role in my own disease, I began to look for anything that could lead me to its understanding and after some time, I started perceiving an analogy between my life decisions and their results in my body, these are physical symptoms - nasal polyps. This resemblance struck me very hard, once I have noticed that my own body situation is a physical manifestation of how I stand up for my rights and dignity. In my opinion, the sinuses represent life space in the physical dimension and their actual condition - the way the individual rights are respected. I made for myself an exciting discovery, that the body generally is a physical manifestation of how I treat myself overall, but the sinuses particularly told me a lot about how much I gave up my space to the others and why.

I am very curious whether anyone who is reading my words and has been suffering from similar diseases, has a decision-making pattern in life similar to that which, in my hypothesis, had an impact on my disease.