My nasal polyps have shown me that my space, where the air flows, has been taken up and two out of my five senses have ceased to function and the energy I produce is consumed by parasitic growths that are fused within me.
I did not immediately notice where and how my living space and my rights were given up to the others. Literally? I have lived in such a way always and initially I was not able to extract the reference situation from the current situation for a simple reason - I did not know what the blueprint condition was as I must have lost the connection with the built-in sense of justice pattern that every living being has and according to which, they make (if they are healthy) optimal decisions concerning their life. How did I lose that connection? I am not sure which events from the past to blame and this is not what I would like to focus on now, as I don't have any influence on the past anyway.
I needed to understand what 'take or occupy my space by others' means. Does that mean that someone sleeps in my bed or eats from my plate or wears my clothes? It could also be that of course, in extreme cases, however, I thought that more subtle issues were the point here.
Figuratively speaking, I noticed that if I allow a not so subtle guest to occupy my home and although being angry deep inside, I do not ask the guest to leave, furthermore, I provide the guest with all available resources and treat them better than the owner of this house, who is myself, I must be breaking some law of nature here. Does this law have any known name? I am not sure, however, if I act in a similar way in most life situations, where I don't stand up for my rights in the cases where others violate them, because I was taught it was wrong, even if consciously I knew it was bullshit, every decision that I make based on that false belief makes my frustration grow and turn into anger over time. If it ended up with anger it wouldn't have been all that bad, but if the anger never was transformed into action, it was buried deep inside and forgotten. An apathy was born, which was like a silent 'consent' to the intruder's constant presence in my home.
A healthy being often uses a gentle means of persuasion and when that doesn't work, they get rid of the intruder by force. A creature with a damaged value system, such as myself, confines within their shell and although agitated, it doesn't react, remaining stuck in this uncomfortable situation. Over time, they get used to these feelings and to such decisions. They don't know that they could have made different decisions, but as every action as well as not taking action have consequences, so if there is a cause to act (anger) and the action, driven by it, is not taken, emotions of distress and helplessness are being built up as a consequence and change into the disease symptoms over time as no energy disappears without trace.